// swirling thoughts://

it feels like i’ve been at NYU forever. winter break was a lifetime ago. my life changed so much in the past two weeks. i can’t even fathom what my life will be like in the future.

there’s too much to think about, not enough time, but i like being busy. i am exhausted but at least i feel invigorated to improve myself constantly. i love working internships where my supervisors WANT to teach me everything they know, they WANT to help me learn whatever it is i want to know, they WANT me to be super successful in the future because they believe in my ability, they WANT to put me in charge of important projects so there will be proof of my work. it’s such a positive feeling, to know that these people who are huge huge hugely important think of you in this way. i’m not trying to be cocky; i am just saying that people notice the work you do. you don’t think they will but they do.

at the same time, i have never missed home than i do right now. every time i think about it, i start to cry. i miss my parents and the foods that they cooked and their unlimited supply of advice. i miss my boyfriend and the infinite love and comfort he provided me. i miss my friends with whom i can reminisce about random memories and laugh and laugh and laugh. i miss my grandma who was so excited to hear about my future plans.

speaking of which, china vs paris? where do i study abroad?

having a hard time grasping everything but i’m holding on tight. there’s a lot of work to be done this semester and i’m going to work harder than i have my entire life, but it’s going to be good. i can feel it in my bones.